i was going to blog about a happy entry.
a sms spoilt it.
you don't have to bother reading.
im just ranting cos talking wont help.
the way you blame her for everything that goes wrong.
the way you always, neverfail to tell me im wrong and you're right.
you know, sometimes i dont even know why i love you.
maybe its cos im guilty?
and yet sometimes i dont know what im guilty off.
im not doing anything wrong.
YOU made the wrong decision.
YOU screwed up her life, and so MINE.
yea, YOU totally screwed it up.
youyouyou. something i'll never forget.
something that i doubt i'll ever forgive you for.
i see her cry at night and it pains me.
because of your effing SCREW up.
i think she deserves another chance,
and i dont think you do.
i dont even know why i bother.
they're nice to me you know. much nicer than you are.
they actually do care about how their decisions affect me, UNLIKE you.
you're a self centered JERK.
and okay fine.
you say you dont wna communicate with me.
you dont want anything to do withme.
and you know, i know that'll never be.
i'll probably come crawling back.
i love you, jerk.
and you know that. you phunkin with my heart.
it's delicate. yea, im not all that strong.
you were right, im a emotional person.
then why do you even screw with me.
im your blood. you love me.
then why did you do what you did,
why do you do what you do.
you just wasting my tears. you making me weaker.
you're making our bond thinner. you're throwing us out.
you've always meant a lot to me.
even when you threw encyclopedias at my head, or even when you whacked me with a belt.
even through all that i still loved you.
i used to ignore her to be with you.
i wanted to spend my time with you.
and as a result, i drifted away from her. and i REGRET.
im gna make it up with her.
and obviously with you as well.
but i just dont see the point.
maybe its just the obligations of my love for you.
WTH. i just dont know.
i dont know why i love you.
i seriously dont.
i actually think i'm getting good at this.
acting like i dont care.
the parabola, a minimum curve.
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sighhers.
smile.
if i dont go to sch tml,
see a happy me on tuesday.